Can't get to sleep...

U know there are times when you just feel so sad..and then you cant stop crying.

A long time friend made me feel this way tonight. Then probably coupled with other things, can't stop crying.

I am a terrible terrible friend to make her give up on me. And I can't find the courage to try again.

And great colleagues left, felt the difference today. Loneliness, inside.

And I felt jealous when I saw my colleague who is pregnant. Dread facing her everyday next year. I really hate myself for feeling this way.

I just want to say...I'm sorry.

Just hope I will become stronger once the tears are gone.

Thanks for standing by me all this while, regardless of how terrible I have been...

Mixed Feelings...

School's starting soon. I'm excited, and at the same time quite sian because holiday's ending.

Been staying up late these few days to prepare for school. I really enjoy planning lessons, doing up worksheets, PPTs and thinking of ways to help my kids learn better and also enjoy my lessons. Plus thinking of strategies to help those taking their Os and Ns next year. I really wish I have time to plan and prepare during term time but the sad fact is we are often too caught up with other stuff.

My N level students got their results on 17th Dec. Very good results for CL but it also means more stress to maintain / improve. It's kind of sad that it is so results-driven here and sometimes it just kills all the interest.

But anyway...I am looking forward to a new school year ahead. New boss, hope it's a good thing. :)

Resolutions

Do I believe in resolutions?

I am not too sure myself. I mean, most of the time many of us forget about the resolutions we made but yet, it seems so right to think of some for the new year as we approach the end of december. 2010 has been an eventful year for me. It has made me realized that how vulnerable life is. There was a period of despair but it is so much better now. I believe 2011 will be a year of more self discovery.

Resolutions for 2011

1) Live everyday with faith, hope and love.

A positive mindset is what I always lack. Emotional roller coasters are something which I am most familiar with. I should stop lamenting and start living properly.

2) Always find time for family.

Especially Mum.

3) Teach with passion and conviction.

I love my job and hope I will be more focused in the coming year.

4) Learn with joy.

Masters is not going to be easy, especially when I have to juggle work and family at the same time. Hope I will not forget why I made the decision despite the many things to consider.

5) 好好做人

Thought for quite a while how to put this down in words. Leaving this in God's hands. I'm sure He has a plan for us.

Came back from Japan on the 15th but only had time to blog about the trip today. Just came back from chalet with wj's family...finally have some time for myself.

Overall, we had a nice and relaxed trip. Both of us fell sick so we went at quite a slow pace. Didn't manage to visit all the places we planned but we enjoyed the whole idea of not rushing.

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5th Dec

At Changi Airport T3, taking SQ (night flight)

6th Dec

Took Narita Express and sleepy me immediately 'woke up' when I saw this.

Had lunch at one of the ramen stalls near Ikebukuro station. There's a young lady from Shanghai working at the stall, had a nice chat with her. Love the ramen in Japan, I wish I can have ramen everyday :P

Went Akihabara. Spent some time there before we went back Ikebukuro to check in our hotel.

And of course, SMAPxSMAP! Loved the little girl!

7th Dec

DisneySea!

Entrance

X'mas Mood

Felt like we were in a different world

Beautiful at night too

Tokyo Tower at night. This photo looks like one of those postcards photo.

8th Dec

Went Kamakura. Visited this shrine I went 5 years ago. Brought back many memories...

Wj had fun 'washing' his money. :)

We walked a long long long way to see Buddha

On a public bus. Wj was quite fascinated at how they calculate the bus fare. Something one won't be able to experience on a package tour.

Had a great dinner...why does everything seems to taste good in Japan?

:P

9th Dec

Off to Hakone

As usual...great lunch

Lake Ashi...Cold~~~

Traditional Japanese Room

Loved this to the max!

Nice View

Lobby of Ichinoyu Honkan (wj fell sick after the first onsen dip...face green green here)

10th Dec

Bento on our way to Kyoto

New Miyako Hotel, just opposite Kyoto Station. Loved it!

11 Dec

Golden Pavilion

Nijo Castle

Sickly wj and 即将生病的我

12th Dec

金龙寺@Arashiyama

Nice Nice Garden :)

Bamboo Grove...gives a feeling of serenity

Feeling unwell at this point of time but didn't foresee what's going to happen minutes later...

Was planning to take this train to go back to hotel asap to rest but vomited before boarding it. Horrible feeling.

We missed the train and decided to take the next one which is actually a 观光 train. We actually enjoyed the train journey, saw great scenery. 阴差阳错？因祸得福？

Thought this is quite scary..btw, this guy has excellent 自拍技术!

The good thing about going to Japan is even though I fell sick, I could still have a great time back in my hotel room :P Think I am really lucky because almost every night,there were variety shows featuring Takuya. This show did a special on him. My illness went away for a while :)

13th Dec

Back to Tokyo and forgot where we went...

14th Dec

SMAP Shop with Gladeys Jaslyn and Kris! (Poor wj had to settle himself :P)

City Tour with wj...photo taken at Shibuya

That's about all...Took a lot of photos but too lazy to upload. Though we had a good time, but it would be better if I went with someone who share the same love for Japan with me. Hoping for a concert next year which I can go...

Next destination with wj: Probably China :)