心动

为什么看着他、听着他会有心动的感觉呢？

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Deflated

I'm in school, waiting for my IP coaching (commonly known as 补课) to start but I don't feel like marking.

I've been feeling kind of deflated lately. After all the CNY visiting and stuff, it's back to work. It's the sports tournament season now hence most of the time I am out with my badminton girls in the afternoon. And I have 3 graduating classes, which means I have IP coaching 3 afternoons a week. There's also marking, lesson preparation and other admin stuff. Plus, I love my Sec 4 kids so much that I am coming back every Sat morning to give them extra help. CA is starting next Tue, meaning I have to return all their work by Mon. Great, I don't need to sleep.

I don't hate doing all these, in fact I think I am lucky most of my workload involves T&L (Teaching and Learning) but just that when it all comes together, it's kind of tough. And worse still, my health decides to sound its alarm at this time.

I love to see ex-students coming back because for some reasons, I sort of gain strength when I see them. And trust me, many of them love the school so much that they come back quite often. Of course, they will move on...make new friends, love their new school and teachers...but I am glad that I was part of their happy experience in school.

Frankly speaking, my whole mind is about work which I think I should get out of it ASAP. As usual, I feel really bad when I think of my Mum and friends...

Rin: Sorry for postponing the gathering at my plc. I know how terrible it is. But...we can go K this coming week :)

Lang: Still didn't manage to catch up with u this time round. Thx for making the effort to ask me...do update ur blog often, can? I visit ur blog very very often.

Meelu: I haven't visited u and Ryan yet...it's been so long since his birth and your ordeal. But U r always in my mind and I am always looking forward to your pic and vid posts on facebook.

Forgive me friends...pls don't stop loving me, k?

Just when I thought after doing lesson planning I am done for the day...I realised I still have marking. How can I forget, right?

After swimming, Isabelle just fell asleep on our carpet, in recovery position.

She is such a darling...

MINNA SAN, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

I think this is my first or second time spending 除夕and 初一in Sg. Can't help it, I'm a married woman now. It's not that bad actually, but I'm still not very used to it. I thought I can rest these few days, but it's eating+visiting all the way. Heng Wj had a headache (opps) and we came back around 5pm, otherwise I think it will be very late again.

It's me lah. Actually it's good to meet up with your relatives, just that I am very used to spending CNY in Kukup. All of us squeezing under one roof and the only house to visit is next door. Rest of the time will be watching TV, chatting, eating, play mahjong, napping etc. I used to get A LOT of rest during CNY.

Will get used to it :)

早生贵子is the most frequent greeting I get this year. Is having a baby really that important? For me, I just want everyone to 平平安安、健健康康过完虎年...

It has been a busy week, with tournaments and CNY rehearsals...

Didn't manage to turn up for Orange's birthday gathering yesterday cos rehearsal ended around 7.30pm. Sorry girl...I really appreciate you for asking. =)

Have been feeling very lethargic this 2 weeks, especially after work.

Wj was nice on Tue night. I dumped the dirty clothes into the washing machine and fell asleep. He helped me keep the dry clothes and hanged those in the washing machine.

There are times when he makes me feel like killing him, but there are times when I feel that he's the nicest man on earth. Argh.

Replies to the 2 comments for the last post:

Rin: I'll cook it for you in your new place when it's ready. I can't wait! :)

Tao: If that day ever comes, we can go SMAPPING together!!! Let them slog their guts out...hohoho~

I think I have been rather regular in updating on Sundays. My Sundays are usually reserved for lesson planning and preparation, and of course...MARKING. I will usually blog when I am taking a break from all these work.

1) Just finished watching 海派甜心 by 罗志祥、杨晨林。It's a nice show, laughed a lot while watching...and my favourite character:


达浪！

I am glad 达浪appeared again towards the end. This gives many the hope that ugly (as perceived by the majority) but kind people 也会很幸福。

2) Very proud of wj. His CCA got Gold! It's the first time they ever achieved it. He took over the CCA 2 years ago with absolutely no UG background. And with the very challenging students he has in the school, it must have been a tough job to be able to attain gold. I secretly wished that he will rise up the ranks quickly so that I can quit and be a tai tai :)

3) CNY's coming. Not really looking forward to spending CNY in Spore. I will miss Kukup terribly but what to do...

Sometimes, after a bad day or a tired day, I will wonder...what am I working so hard for? Why am I leaving school after 7pm everyday? Why am I still marking and preparing for lessons after work and during the weekends? Why am I doing all these when there are ppl who still misunderstands me and who chose to overlook all my efforts?

People say, don't get too involved, don't get too affected. But it's hard. Once you put your heart into it, that's it.

I have been reflecting a lot lately...about how I handle and treat my students. I think I have been pampering them too much. I think I haven't been guiding them the correct way. And maybe the care and concern I have for them...is expressed in the wrong manner. I feel a lot for my students, but maybe I should take a different approach. Maybe I should learn to find a way which will benefit them the most.

After 4+ years, I am still pondering over what is really the true meaning of education~~~