Can't get to sleep...

U know there are times when you just feel so sad..and then you cant stop crying.

A long time friend made me feel this way tonight. Then probably coupled with other things, can't stop crying.

I am a terrible terrible friend to make her give up on me. And I can't find the courage to try again.

And great colleagues left, felt the difference today. Loneliness, inside.

And I felt jealous when I saw my colleague who is pregnant. Dread facing her everyday next year. I really hate myself for feeling this way.

I just want to say...I'm sorry.

Just hope I will become stronger once the tears are gone.

Thanks for standing by me all this while, regardless of how terrible I have been...